It’s like you don’t even give a shit about me. You put on this play this act and you think I can’t see what’s really behind all this. So go ahead with your word play stick the knife a little deeper because I’m done with all this bullshit because I’m not afraid of death in fact it’s my only friend
OMG. FIX THINGS WITH ROBIN. NOW.
Yeah I wish but she made her choice you know… I wanted things to work out. But I guess we just had different feelings. It breaks my heart everyday I don’t wake up to her texts anymore. It depresses me to know I will never be loved the same way again
Everything has an end
So if any of you party people don’t know I am now single. Been single for a week and honestly it couldn’t had come at a worse time. Being new to Hawaii and to the ship I’ve been kind of a loner and now that she upped and left well things have turned for the worse.
Depression, loneliness and self loathing has become a daily routine. I can’t help but quote biggie smalls “when I die fuck it I want to go to hell cause I’m a piece of shot ain’t hard to fuckin’ tell” and don’t get me wrong it’s not the break up making me feel like this that was just the spark to set this fire.
Everyday feels like a rollercoaster and frankly I’m waiting for the ride to stop or crash. I guess all I need is a friend. Someone to ask how I am. Someone who gives a shit if I wake up the next day.
Maybe I’m too hard on myself but everytime I look inside the mirror all I see is some pathetic, ugly, lonely depressed kid. And fuck it maybe I am.
That feeling of “I don’t know” seems to be the only thing attracted to me. That and the feeling of depression. So fuck it maybe the world would be better off if I stepped off. Maybe this is one fight worth giving up…
SORRY ! @ My Baby Girl
It had just came to my attention that I looked over one of your questions =P My phone background is you baby <33 There I answered ALL of them !
WOOT! WOOT!! You're back!! So....question timeeeee!!!! What's the best thing about Hawaii so far? What's the first thing you did this morning? What's your phone background? What's your favorite memory? What's your favorite kind of cookie? lol, such random ass questions!
Of course you ask me something !
Anywho best thing of Hawaii? Defiantly has to be all the chicas around =P I’m just kidding baby girl <33 Really it’s the weather I mean I haven’t gone out and been like “Well fuck this” haha it’s really been cool.
First thing I did this morning was wake up to “Liberty Liberty Liberty. Liberty is here now granted to all authorized personal. ***************** Now Liberty” I don’t listen to all of it thats why I added in the stars haha
Favorite memory, “……. You know what I just realized…. I love you” <3
CHOCOLATE CHIP ALL THE WAY !!!!!!!!
And thank you for playing the Carlitos is bored out of his goddamn mind game !
I love you hunny bunny <3
